Take You Back

I was overcome with emotion when I watched the video to this song today for two reasons.

1. It reminded me of my brother. I have been praying for a long time for him. He has been in pain for a long time. Turning to so many "answers" that have yet to fulfill and solve anything, he seems like he has been wondering for the longest time. He has had a painful life. He knows about God. He knows about Jesus. I was with him when he asked Jesus into his heart, yet his heart is now far from Him. I don't think my brother thinks that is really the answer. Yet. It is so hard to watch someone struggle as I have seen him and not even have the slightest clue how to respond. He literally has nothing in his ownership other than a car and a chainsaw. The pain of life is still overwhelming for him and he's still searching for answers.

2. It reminded me of me. I have struggled along with my brother looking for security in all the wrong places. I still look for it around me in places other than where it truly belongs. Relationships that I suffocated because of my longing to find security in them have resulted in great pain and regret. That horrible feeling when you wake up in the morning and know you can't take whatever you said or did back. Those memories haunt me. I have accepted Christ and try to live as He wants me to but I am still haunted.

And yet....He is willing to take both of us back. I have gone back and forth with God so many times in my life - accepting and praising Him with all that I am and then pushing Him away with anger and disgust at other times. It is shameful when I think of those times. But when I come back, He is there.

I've included the music and lyrics to this beautiful song here, but the video is so powerful that it's worth the 4 minutes it takes to see it. You can link to it here.

Take a listen to this song and praise Him for His unending mercy and forgiveness. And if you think of it, please say a prayer for my brother.



I'll Take You Back
The reason why I stand
The answer lies in you
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few
When I fall I bring your name down
But I have found in you
A heart that bleeds forgiveness
replacing all these thoughts of painful memories
But I know that your response will always be

I'll take you back always
Even when your fight is over now (x2)
I'll take you back always and
Even when the pain is coming through (x2)
I'll take you back

You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm looking for
And I'll take all I can
And lay it down before
The throne of endless grace now that radiates what's true
I'm in the only place that
erases all these faults
That have overtaken me
But I know that your response will always be

I'll take you back always and
Even when your fight is over now(x2)
I'll take you back always
Even when the pain is coming through(x2)
I'll take you back

I can only speak with a grateful heart
As I'm pierced by this gift of your love
I will always bring an offering
I can never thank you enough

You take me back always
Even when my fight is over now (x2)
You take me back always
Even when my pain is coming through(x2)
You take me back (repeat these 5 lines twice)